good ghost.: May 2010

5.26.2010

Got all my stars aligned

A big THANKS to everyone who wished me congratulations and kind words about my previous "oh gosh I'm pregnant" post! Now that you're all in the know, I feel I can truly state my feelings on the matter.

I'm terrified to be pregnant. This wasn't planned. Sure, Seve and I joked about trying and every once in a while I'd see baby related items and get a little spark of excitement thinking how cool it'd be to have a kid. Gosh, I even bought a baby hat and coat some many odd weeks ago because I thought they were totally cool and didn't want to pass them up. But I stowed them away in the closet thinking I'd pull them out sometime after Seve graduated, when we were originally planning on having kids. Now that this reality is suddenly upon us, I'm scared.

Luckily, the majority of my friends understand how I feel, and my family's excitement over the matter has helped to make it exciting for me. And I really don't have any reason to be scared. I have a good job with good insurance. We have family who love and support us. It's not like I'm Juno or anything.

To be honest, I don't even feel pregnant yet - I just feel sick! So, so, so sick. Nauseous and pukey and heartburn and sick. It doesn't feel like I'm carrying some future bundle of joy, just some new type of flu. Everything I eat looks, smells, and sounds disgusting. I took the last two days off work because I just couldn't function, and well, because yesterday was my birthday. Seve stayed home with me yesterday, taking the day off classes and convincing me to get out of the house. We took a nice walk around town , and it did actually help me to feel better.

He also surprised me with a new mp3 player for our car! AND guess what arrived in the mail? And guess who can't ride (well, slide) it because of new circumstances?

Boo, boo, boo. Maybe once morning sickness leaves me alone, I'll start to get excited. And maybe once I get my first ultrasound, it'll start to feel real. But for now, boo.

By the way, my due date is 1/1/11. And my cousin recently found out she's pregnant as well, and her due date is 1/11/11. I told her our stars were aligned.

5.25.2010

5.21.2010

Well guys, I have some news.

5.11.2010

Yes, a Pillowcase

Holy cow, so much has been on my mind lately.

The Normal Stuff That's Been On My Mind:
-Negotiating my salary at work. Makes me feel like a big girl and a child at the same time.
-My desire for the Apex 34 (back in stock in 3 WEEKS!!) and Seve's desire for the Landyachtz Switch (we're not fond of the graphic though) . . . versus our budget.
-My birthday and his birthday that could justifiably bring us these longboards . . .

The Transitional Normal/Crazy Stuff That's Been On My Mind:
-Imma gonna make a dress out of a pillow case! (via Style Rookie via Sassy)

The Crazy Stuff That's Been On My Mind:
-Seve was cast in the Barber of Seville! No, that's not crazy, this is: he plays an old man and has to shave his head. Partially. Like, appear as though he's balding with that half circle of hair remaining around the sides of his head. His precious head. Why not just let him wear a bald head piece?
-Seve's laptop is injured. The top right part of his screen has this horrible "black eye" sustained in his backpack during a longboard injury (of course . . .) It's so frustrating because the rest of the laptop works great, it's just this giant blotch on his screen so he can't see anything there. And replacing the screen will cost half of what a new laptop will. What to do, what to do?

Also, I've been thinking of reinstating the grunge party by way of my birthday this month! And minus Mary Kay. Happy Grunge Birthday to me!